[StephN]

Dear Lyn -
So sorry you feel so down in the dumps. Being able to stand up tall and face this beast at least keeps our pride. So - sit up straight and tall and try to take it all in. Our Lyn must keep her courage up!

My neighbor's sister had mets to spine and the radiation knocked it out. She was an older lady and passed three years later of another health problem.

Are you taking Zometa or any other biphosphanate for your bones??

I sure know how you feel when you look in the mirror. Last year I really had the "full moon" look after taking the Decadron. Could barely recognize my self. Keep the thought that it is temporary.

Lani sure took some time to look things up and post. Very interesting and gives you a lot of "bullet points" to bring up with your docs.
This is definitely the worst blow as far as this cancer has dealt you. I certainly can easily recall the shock I had over my mets.
As you begin to work through it, the shock will become dull and strength will emerge.