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Hi
I can definitely relate to this topic. I cannot bear to even think about not being here for my 5 y.o. son. We are having trouble with him at school. It is his first year, and he cries each morning, because he misses me during the day. Of course, this makes me think how much worse it would be for him if I wasn't here at all. It just breaks my heart. He is the reason I get up in the mornings, and fight each day.
I find that I have to write things down for him. I am realistic to know that I probably won't be here to share a lot of things with him, so I have to prepare for that. I have written him letters about things that I think he will want my opinion on, such as our IVF treatment, my illness, etc. He can always ask his Dad, but I think it is important that he knows my thoughts. I always feel so much better after writing a letter. They are certainly hard to write, but I do feel a sense of relief after.
Good luck.
Love Lisa
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