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That is the hardest thing of all. I have a 17 year old son that I have put my world into and I love him dearly, I know that he would miss me terribly but would be alright, he has a great support system. It's my little girl who's 7 that I worry about most. She knows I have Cancer but doesn't seem to grasp what it is at all. I want to be around for her to fix her hair for homecoming and buy her cool clothes and do the things mothers and daughters do. She was a miracle baby to me. Me and my husband did not intend to have another child and had unprotected sex only 1 time in eight years...that was it, she was waiting for her chance to get her, and she is such a blessing. I always pray to God that since he gave me a miracle in her, that he in turn can give me another miracle and let me see her grow up and have her own children. I'm greedy, I want it all. I figure if I'm going to ask for a miracle, it will be a good one. At time I feel hopeless but then I realize what I have to fight and hope for, I intend to be here when she has her first date. If I didn't have children, this cancer would be so much easier to deal with, at least that's what I tell myself...sherryg683
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