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aquinis2000 · 03-19-2006, 04:04 PM

Havah, I am stage 4, mets to liver, mediastenium, axillary nodes bilat, and two breast tumors. my ct scans showed disease in all areas two months ago, that are diminished from from original dx. but still present. i had ac plus taxol. at the beginning of january, when the last ct showed improved, but still present disease. I decided to make a clean break from the chemo. the herceptin was either going to work or not. so i quit. my tumor makers are still within normal range as of last week. my hair is growing in, my energy is back, i don't feel like a mad woman anymore, and i have my life back. I enjoy each day and can remember now what it was like to be me. Before the dx. Do you still remember that person? i knew mentally I could not go on with the chemo. I have a firm faith in My Lord and Savior and know that God is always "on time". He will take me when he is ready. His time., not mine.I have been able to lead the youth group again at church and get out and live again. I am in complete denial now. I pretend it's not even there. I feel great, and even if that is just for a few more months, it's the way I need to live. Feeling healthy. I know that there is a place prepared for me already with God, so in the meantime I plan to ignore the big elephant in my living room. I have read extensivally on herceptin and chemo, life expectancy, time to progression and quality if life. For me.........this is the best route. I'm glad I stopped living the world according to oncology today and started living my life again. the cancer will take me in the end, but I am going out my way. It has empowered me greatly. God bless you and your decisions. I do take the herceptin weekly, with no side effects. So if the good Lord is willing, it will prolong my life, and if He is not. I'm going home. God is Good.

03-19-2006, 04:04 PM	#5
aquinis2000 Senior Member Join Date: Nov 2005 Posts: 51	quality of life Havah, I am stage 4, mets to liver, mediastenium, axillary nodes bilat, and two breast tumors. my ct scans showed disease in all areas two months ago, that are diminished from from original dx. but still present. i had ac plus taxol. at the beginning of january, when the last ct showed improved, but still present disease. I decided to make a clean break from the chemo. the herceptin was either going to work or not. so i quit. my tumor makers are still within normal range as of last week. my hair is growing in, my energy is back, i don't feel like a mad woman anymore, and i have my life back. I enjoy each day and can remember now what it was like to be me. Before the dx. Do you still remember that person? i knew mentally I could not go on with the chemo. I have a firm faith in My Lord and Savior and know that God is always "on time". He will take me when he is ready. His time., not mine.I have been able to lead the youth group again at church and get out and live again. I am in complete denial now. I pretend it's not even there. I feel great, and even if that is just for a few more months, it's the way I need to live. Feeling healthy. I know that there is a place prepared for me already with God, so in the meantime I plan to ignore the big elephant in my living room. I have read extensivally on herceptin and chemo, life expectancy, time to progression and quality if life. For me.........this is the best route. I'm glad I stopped living the world according to oncology today and started living my life again. the cancer will take me in the end, but I am going out my way. It has empowered me greatly. God bless you and your decisions. I do take the herceptin weekly, with no side effects. So if the good Lord is willing, it will prolong my life, and if He is not. I'm going home. God is Good.