Hi there, well I may be a dinosauer on this site but believe me all of the feelings felt here are felt by each and everyone of us many times, I have been on this roller coaster since 1998 and on this site for as just about as long as it has been in existance. 43 when first diagnosed with an 8 year old daughter who has grown through this experience, not the way I would have liked it but positive. I have had that many reoccurences and also had as many other hit and misses in life struggling to stay alive just with traffic, environment, stress and depression. Each time I have to face the results of this disease, I end up having my own pity party for a few days and then a bit like Pollyanna, anyone remember her? the good things, like yes they do want to see me next week, so at least I am not checking out today, a bit like the lottery, we all hope for a silver lining. so the simple answer live and love today and let tomorrow worry about itself, easy to say no, as I lay in the hospital wondering who will work out how to do the internet banking or pay the electricity, or who will wake my 22 year old son up when he sleeps through his alarm, and yes there are 4 of us living here, but I just don't want to let go and I am now 52, I was given about 2 - 3 years back then and we are getting better science each day, just remember we are all here for a purpose, when someone finds out mine please let me know. Like the chicken and the egg, someone has to go first, just not us or anyone we know and love.
Love & Hugs Lyn
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