[kristen]

Dear Lisa and Laurie,

I want you both to know this is the place to vent and don't ever apologize. That is what makes this place so special.
You are both so raw right now. I mean you are in such the early stages of the treatment and follow-up and when you think it's over, it's not over. There are years of follow up. But that is good. The longer you go disease free the better. This is the time now after the shock and when your winding down that the fears take place. This is normal. So let them out and talk about them. Your friend is trying to help, she is doing what she thinks is best. Everyone of us has been there. It's a roller coaster and you will have good days and bad ones. Scares come with the territory. I can't tell you this dang thing won't recur, but this is the place to come to ask what does that feel like and what did you do. We can help and we do understand what your going through. These ladies have helped me through it all. They are great.

Lisa, the decision about having another child is a hard one and so personal. I know women who have struggled with this and have gone both ways. Some having another child and others opting not to. In time you will know what to do. I wouldn't do to much surfing on the net, some of it's old and if you were on Herceptin as an adjuvent with chemo, who knows what the study will bare out?
I don't know how your supposed to prepare yourself for a reoccurance, I wouldn't even try. I tried to stay positive. It's not always easy, especially if you were going in for a test because something isn't feeling right? My advice is one this board gave me and that is to pro-active. Like Laurie, her doctors are telling her it could be a number of things, but she is getting it checked out and it will hopefully be nothing and it will give her peace of mind and she can continue on. Stay Strong ladies. I hate the saying, but in time, it does get better.