here are somelinks to previous post here on the subject. there are alot of stories here, alot of survival stories and of courageous women like yourself. Good luck with your journey. everyone here is willing to talk and help with all the things swirling around in your head !
http://her2support.org/vbulletin/sho...tin+recurrence
http://her2support.org/vbulletin/sho...tin+recurrence