Hi there, like LOLLY I was diagnosed in 1998 and given 2-3 years at best with a very agressive fast moving cancer with no clear margin. I call my disease cancerbeties, I have been having continual treatment non stop but not for agressesive cancer, biopsies say similar but not the same as the original, my onc says it is a miracle I am still alive, I say no it is called hercerptin.. While I can still get through to the tomorrows there is the chance that there will be an answer. I have also parted with friends who compared to me were curable but not so. It is a personal choice and while I do have times where I just want to throw it all in, what stops me is how will my family manage without me, I know everyone says they will survive, but at what cost. I have a 16 year old daughter who I want to see get married, a 22 year old son who cannot read or write yet has a very well paid job, and tells me that he loves me and will never leave home, no he is not mentally impaired he just likes his cars and family life and an older son while in a relationship with an adorable 4 year old red head stepdaughter, I would like to see him have children of his own. This year for the first time I have bought Xmas decorations after Xmas that were on sale for next year , my daughter's response was lets hope you are still here, not the statement I expected from her but she knows what pain I have been in this last year with my fractured shoulders, nothing to do with the cancer but from accidents. You are not on your own, a lot of us have the same thoughts as you but something happens and we snap out of it until next time. We all pray for each other on this site and respect each others decisions, we all do care.
Love & Hugs Lyn
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