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Dear Rhonda,
I was dx. 09/26/91 with stage 1 BC. While in my 5th mos. of tx. I had a T.I.A. (Transit eschemic attack) which is like a stroke without the long lasting effects. It took the team of doctors 2 months to determine if I had mets. I was devistated and freaked out. I had three children, age 7,4, and 1. It turned out to be scarring from the T.I.A.
A year later I started having abnormal mamograms. I went through several more abnormal mamograms and ultra-sounds until I finally got a second opinion from a lady doc who felt I should have a biopsy. It turned out to be a benign fybroadenoma.
Everytime I had an appt. with one of my cancer doc's, I would freak just waiting for the ball to drop. I finally quit going to see any of them and ignored subtle symptoms until I had full blown mets to my spine. The fear paralyzed me to the point I could not function.
I have not been N.E.D. since my reocurrance Feb. 04, but I don't live in that constant fear of it returning, I guess because it hasn't left yet. I sometimes feel that I'm better equipped at stage 4 then I was at stage 1 to deal with all of this.
Just try to take things one step at a time and try not to dwell on the "what ifs". It will make you crazy.
Blessings, Lu Ann.
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