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I think it's better when our children are able to express their fears. My son was 11 when I was first diagnosed and 17 when it metastasized to my brain, lungs, and liver. He also had the fear that it was catching when I was younger. He has kept all his feelings to himself, and I have no idea how he really feels. At first I thought he was handling it, but now I know that it has had a signifcant impact on his life and that he is just in denial. I also have a 23 year old daughter with autism, and I worry about her future the most. My oldest married two months after my cancer returned, and she is starting her adult life. She is quite distraught with the situation, and found this website for me. I wish I had found it sooner.
I am not religious; see a little of the divine in nature, but am basically an agnostic. I therefore don't receive any solace from the idea of a hereafter.
I am still able to teach full time (third grade), and that helps to keep my mind off of my situation. Along with my family, my students mean the world to me, and I receive satisfaction knowing that I can make a difference in their lives.
My heart goes out to all of you, especially those of you who are raising your children alone. Many of you still find the time to encourage others on this site.
Best wishes,
Barbara H.
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