Annemarie

I just look at this experience as a lost opportunity for my friend. Most of the time when there is a disappiontment in a relationship one party will not conceed with an apology. I make friends rather easily and I am in no way in any pain. I feel I did everything I could and it is unfortunate that my friend (or former friend) is not a forgiving person which I think is a terrible trait. I have an open door to her. Our husbands were very good friends as well. My husband was with me and our son and he was embarrassed for her! He thought it was so childish.

My reason for not telling people everything is I have had a lot of bad things happen to me. Not only have I had bc with brain mets but I had one miscarriage and then preterm labor with quadruplets at 21 weeks 2 days. the babies were born and died in our arms. 24 weeks is the min. for survival. A gestational surrogate carried our son. So I know a few things about loss and sorrow. I prefer to be on the up and up and focus on what I do have rather than my losses. This just seems to work for me. I don't like it when people ask me how I am feeling. I guess part of it is my denial- if we don't discuss it than it does not exist. I do see a psychiatrist a few times a month. I tell him everything.