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Lyn · 10-17-2005, 05:28 AM

Hi Jen, I have thought about it on occassion and believe me I have had plenty of time over the last almost 8 years of constant treatment. I went to a therapist onece before this for depression and all I got was a lot of ah ha, ah ha, and now go home and write down all of your feelings and we will talk again. I have nothing against them but I think unless they walk in our shoes no one can possibily know all the emotions and feelings we have. I am still getting the, "You have to remain positive, you are strong" to the point now I say "WHY?" I have always looked well and thankfully have not had to go through what some of the ladies have experienced, but then again I have not had a break from this disease for any period longer than 3 months, I Have had over 10 different chemo drugs plus combinations, over 100 radiation sessions and popped that many pills and vitamins to combat all the other disasters I have encountered along the way, and I have found that my best therapy has been this Forum, with great thanks to Joe and Christine for making this possible, I can come on line anytime day or night, there is always someone on line around the world with a good, I can't say ear but insight of how we feel, willing to help us through this. I have had medical problems that the docs don't have answers for but you can bet there is someone out there who has had or knows someone who does and there is always an answer and the willingness of our online sisters and brothers who will do the research and help us through. I find just posting on this forum therapy, sometimes I will do a real long post and when I hit the submit button it disappears into cyber space, but what the heck I always feel better after. I find that a good mild non addictive anti-depressant helps. If you don't sleep you don't heal, and I make sure now I always sleep, if there is a problem worrying won't fix it for me and it will still be there for me to fix tomorrow and I will be rested at least. My greatest fear is leaving my family to fend for themselves if anything was to happen to me, now that is something to worry about in my house. Hope this helps, and thanks again Christine and Joe, I swapped the names around this time, you are both equally important to us and we love you both dearly.

Love & Hugs Lyn.

10-17-2005, 05:28 AM	#13
Lyn A Living Legend Join Date: Oct 2005 Posts: 235	Hi Jen, I have thought about it on occassion and believe me I have had plenty of time over the last almost 8 years of constant treatment. I went to a therapist onece before this for depression and all I got was a lot of ah ha, ah ha, and now go home and write down all of your feelings and we will talk again. I have nothing against them but I think unless they walk in our shoes no one can possibily know all the emotions and feelings we have. I am still getting the, "You have to remain positive, you are strong" to the point now I say "WHY?" I have always looked well and thankfully have not had to go through what some of the ladies have experienced, but then again I have not had a break from this disease for any period longer than 3 months, I Have had over 10 different chemo drugs plus combinations, over 100 radiation sessions and popped that many pills and vitamins to combat all the other disasters I have encountered along the way, and I have found that my best therapy has been this Forum, with great thanks to Joe and Christine for making this possible, I can come on line anytime day or night, there is always someone on line around the world with a good, I can't say ear but insight of how we feel, willing to help us through this. I have had medical problems that the docs don't have answers for but you can bet there is someone out there who has had or knows someone who does and there is always an answer and the willingness of our online sisters and brothers who will do the research and help us through. I find just posting on this forum therapy, sometimes I will do a real long post and when I hit the submit button it disappears into cyber space, but what the heck I always feel better after. I find that a good mild non addictive anti-depressant helps. If you don't sleep you don't heal, and I make sure now I always sleep, if there is a problem worrying won't fix it for me and it will still be there for me to fix tomorrow and I will be rested at least. My greatest fear is leaving my family to fend for themselves if anything was to happen to me, now that is something to worry about in my house. Hope this helps, and thanks again Christine and Joe, I swapped the names around this time, you are both equally important to us and we love you both dearly. Love & Hugs Lyn.