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Lyn. I don't know if this is going to staunch your tears or not but I hope so. This disease, I guess like any other terminal illness (but I don't know) makes us very self-centred and survival becomes a priority. But what you have expressed here has a tremendous usefulness for others. You have shown that having informed yourself and taken the risk, led to believe in the efficacy of the standard treatment, it did not work and you have suffered from it and paid a huge price in mental and physical health. You have done something that will allow others to benefit from your experience. Now, from your courage to admit the truth of your situation, you have given some other women at the early stages, the possibility of thinking about whether the same might end up being true for them. They can now put together the information they have and ask, is it worth it, to go through all of this if there is the possibility that it will not make one iota of positive difference and at the same time devastating their immune system and all the other strengths they had at the start. God works in mysterious ways and it is almost always impossible to understand why we have to suffer but at least you are still alive to speak about it. Eccles
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