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Today is my turn to be panicking. I have bone mets. dx 4 yrs ago. I've been off chemo for 6 months & maintaing on herceptin/zometa. I'm not feeling any symptoms, but my ca2729 has been creeping up to 120 the last month (I've been too scared to call & ask about what last week's was. Also my liver enxzyme numbers have been elevated for several months, although nothing has shown up on scans yet on the liver.
My pet scan is coming up next Wed. & I can feel myself getting into that tight ball of anxiety already.
To make matters worse, I saw my qigong healer person this morning for a healing session. (Qigong is out of the Chinese tradition; it's energy healing. I've been going to this person since before I had cancer.)
I try to do this about once a month. He usually makes me feel more calm, but today when I told him I was worried about my tumor marker being up & the upcoming scan & I asked him what he saw... at the end of the session he said he saw more 'activity' in my spine and more blockage/congestion in my liver. It wasn't the 'you're fine' type message he usually says. Of course, he doesn't say 'cancer' but he's got me even more worried. He said he'd like to do another healing again before my scan, but of course with the holiday weekend coming up there are no openings for me to get in to see him.
It's going to be a long long weekend with this hanging over my head. This constant waiting, worrying, wondering is sheer torture.
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