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I've been dealing with this since 2000. But only stage 4 for around 3 years. The only break I got from chemo so far was because I ended up in the hospital for 11 days last year and after I got our I was off chemo for 3 months. I had a pity party this last weekend. maybe it's the full mood. I lay in bed thinking maybe it's about time to quit this chemo. The sorry thing is I don't really feel that bad. My feet and hands and mouth hurt from the xeloda but it's not like I can't do anything my friends do. Sometimes we just get tired of the battle. My husband had to fill out new papers for FMLA to get off work to take me to my treatment. The part on how long was this expected to last , my Dr. filled in" for life". I knew that but to see it in words also help put me in my pity party. I think we have these down days and then we pull out of it and start our fight again. So hopefully you too will get out of this slump and start again.
Patty H
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