I will be praying for you and you must pray for yourself. You need not feel that you are intruding on us stage IV girls. We all have our cross to bare and it looks like you have a very heavy one so cut yourself some slack. I have been going through alot of depression, but not so much from being stage IV as with dealing with my teanage daughters. They don't have a clue what I am going through and it is really hard for me to put things into perspective and turn things over to God. If you want you can e-mail me at
ludysmith@yahoo.com any time you need to. Take care of that infection and take care of yourself. If you need to, get meds for your anxiety. I wish I would have when I was diagnosed 13 years ago when my kids were little and maybe I wouldn't have the problems I have with them now during this reoccurrance of disease.