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Tonight I went to the local pizza place and saw an old gentleman that I knew from years ago when I was a lifeguard at the community pool. He is so lovely. Over the years I know that he lost his wife. I wanted to say hello but I knew he would ask me if I had any children. This question pains me so that I opted to just duck him.
My story is a bit different regarding parenthood. Many people may not agree with this but I believe that I will live my life the same whether or not I have had breast cancer. I think my husband has the right to enjoy parenthood whether or not I live. There are no guarantees that healthy parents are going to survive. My biggest regret would be if I live another 40 yrs. and I do not do the things that I wanted to do because I thought I was going to die. My psychiatrist has encouraged me to think this way. He just stresses that there are no guarantees in life. It would be the last gift to my husband. So we have pursed gestational surrogacy. This is just my point of view and I may be making a huge mistake.
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