Sometimes I don't know where you get your positive attitude from. I always am so impressed when you say how your grandmother inspired you....not to complain but to be positive. I get in slumps all the time (had one this weekend) and I'm not even dealing with a tenth of what you are. Lean on your parents and brother's family and friends. And I pray that you are able to find some young women in your own community for a face to face support group session. Want to come to KC for a visit
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