[laureen]

7 and 1/2 years out for me and doing fine. Sorry i have not checked in for awhile. My kids are getting big. Ryder just turned five in Feb and Lucy will be three in June. still cannot believe chemo cured my infertility and blessed me with the loves of my life. lymphedrma is still as nasty as ever and still contemplating lymph node transfer surgery. Survior guilt still hits me hard sometimes, why am i here when others are not. Fear of a reoccurance seems to keep me still question every little ache and pain. talked to other survivors recently and they have moved on and dont fight these feelings, gotta figure out how to channel these fears into something productive.