[BonnieR]

My mantra has always been "keep the faith". I know it is probably annoying and Pollyanna-ish. But really, what else do we have but the hope that things will be brighter down the road. And the assurance of others that it will happen. You are still in early days, not yet a year behind you. Perfectly entitled to be pissed off and mad as a wet hen( I love that term!). But it is sort of like carrying a resentment. Who does all that anger hurt? I'm glad you are unloading it here I hope you have a group or therapist you can vent to I just want to tell you that it is not going to always be this way. You will make peace with the situation as it levels off and life will be worth living. You won't be thinking of cancer every waking minute Even if you are not religious, try asking a higher power for relief. Just ask
And keep the faith