[Lien]

Hi Linn,

Whoever said you need to be Superwoman? Why on Earth should you be positive about anything? Cancer sucks! It scares the heck out of us, turns our lives upside down, makes us feel awful because of treatment side effects and did I say it sucks?

We are constantly fed fairytales by the media about a pink, glossy, frilly, positive sisterhood. Perhaps some of us feel that way, but I didn't. Especially after finishing treatment, I felt like the bottom fell out of my life. It took time, and friends, to get me back on track. Being able to vent here and on the Breastcancer Listserv helped a lot.

I am 9 years out from diagnosis and have managed to find that positive attitude somewhere along the way. It gets better. Believe me, this too shall pass. It is part of the whole cancer experience.

Please talk to your doc about adjusting your medicine if you feel that would help. Talk to people who "get it", join a live support group if that works for you. But never ever blame yourself for feeling the way you do. You did not ask for this cancer experience. It hit you out of the blue. You found yourself on a rollercoaster ride and you have to run the course. How could anyone expect you to feel good about that?

But like I said, it does get better. Just hang in there and get all the help you can get. You deserve it!

Hugs

Jacqueline