[alicem]

Hi Leah,

The one memory that still stands out in my mind is the way I felt going into my 6th and final treatment. I was dreading it. Treatment #5 had been horrible and I came right out and asked the doctor if he could put me into a coma. He looked sad and asked if it had been that bad, and I said... "Well, yes, and I hear that each one gets progressively worse." Of course he wouldn't induce a coma, but he did tell me to call him for any reason in the weeks ahead.

As it turned out, it was not worse and I realized later that was because my father had passed away one week before treatment #5, and I also came down with a bad sinus infection. While getting my last chemo infusion, I found out about a charity bike ride in October that was going to benefit some of the organizations that had helped me during my treatment. It gave me a goal to get excited about - that light at the end of the tunnel. It was also such a relief to get that chapter of my treatment over with. I hope that you can find something to look forward to in the months ahead. I'm glad that it was something that made me go out and be active again - that really helped.

I just visited your blog and I'm so glad that you have taken the time to document your feelings during this journey. (It is wonderful by the way!) I didn't, and 3 1/2 years after my treatment ended, it is hard for me to remember the details. I did start a blog a little over a year ago, and if you are interested, you can read about my journey here (You will have to scroll down to the end to read about my 6th infusion)... http://www.thishomeplate.com/2011/09...y-part-iv.html

I pray that all goes well tomorrow and for the next 3 weeks of recovery. Soon this will all be a distant memory for you.

~My best, Alice