[KsGal]

I can identify with the feelings you posted about. I feel so much despair when I see women with such positive attitudes and strong spirit stolen away by this horrible disease.
I tried for as long as I could to keep things "normal" for my kids, and I managed for about year...working 45 hours a week and doing all my regular activities. I quit work a week ago due to my lack of energy and the muscle aches and such, and was approved for disability in no time flat.

To try to maintain the health I have left at this point, I meditate, I do self-hypnosis CDs. I recently watched the documentary Sick, Fat and Almost Dead, and decided I, too, would start doing the green juice and vegetables and fruit, and not eat processed foods. I walk for exercise and swim in an indoor pool with the temperature at a therapeutic level (this is more for my fibromyalgia-like symptoms). I try to only allow positive energy and thoughts to surround me, which of course has been more difficult lately.

Sometimes I think I am in some kind of denial, because I dont feel THAT sick, so until I hit a major setback, my brain cannot really accept the concept that what I have is "terminal".
I pray every day for that breakthrough discovery will come that will save us all, and that I will hang in there long enough to see it approved and available to everyone.