[twosenuf99]

Thanks everyone. I saw the radiation onc today and she is insisting where I started with the aggressiveness of the cancer I need to do rads. I am still not sure what I will do. My biggest fear is pain and damage to my lung, ribs or chest wall. Not to mention that I may lose the expander that I have been filling. She says all these are rare but unfortunately I am atypical and the stuff that shouldn't happen to me does.. The onc said chemo related nausea was a breeze with the new meds they have to counteract it.. Problem is none of them worked for me. I just learned like many others to cope. As for the Tamoxifen(sp) I have not decided on that either but I will definitely ask about the Raloxefene. I was also told today not to continue filling the left expander until after rads because they will not be able to position the machine properly. So now I worry about filling the right and looking lopsided.. I know it is trivial to worry about the way I look but I guess I am just really done with all of this. So stressed out over what to do, I just want to go to bed and never come out. Thanks again for the advice. I appreciate it.