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Re: Crossroads
I am reading between the lines and I feel you want to go back. You ask, "what if I prove to be unreliable?". Well what if you don't? This job sounds like part of your soul. I sense if you dont at least try going back, you may always have that "what if" feeling. And I hate that in myself. If you go back, what is the worst that can happen? You have to leave.
Previously, I suggested looking for signs. I believe if we quiet our minds, the right answer will present itself. Sometimes from an unexpected source.
I do feel your pain. There is nothing worse than being on the fence. I recall having terrible times with decision during treatment. I even talked to the therapist about it. Just day to day decisions were frustrating.
Keep the faith
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Bonnie
Post menopause
May 2007 Core biopsy, Rt breast
ER+, Pr-, HER2 +++, Grade 3
Ki-67: 90%
"suspicious area" left breast
Bilateral mastectomy, (NED on left) May 2007
Sentinel Node Neg
Stage 1, DCIS with microinvasion, 3 mm, mostly removed during the biopsy....
Femara (discontinued 7/07) Resumed 10/07
OncoType score 36 (July 07)
Began THC 7/26/07 (d/c taxol and carboplatin 10/07)
Began Herceptin alone 10/07
Finished Herceptin July /08
D/C Femara 4/10 (joint pain/trigger thumb!)
5/10 mistakenly dx with lung cancer. Middle rt lobe removed!
Aromasin started 5/10
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