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I think it's understable to be depressed after all we have gone or going thru.
I was placed on Lexapro and then Celexa. Oh yeah, I has the happiest busy bunny you've ever seen! I could work till 11pm cleaning while whistling away. This is just not me even before cancer when everyone said I had a Type A+ personality.
So the gp (not the onc-the onc did not want to get involved in this), placed me on Wellbutrin SR. The SR works according to the depression blogs out there better than regular wellbutrin and the generic form-so be aware of that. I take two tablets a day, you will not notice a high, but you will handle things, even the bad ones with more acceptance and you will not be up at 11pm ironing or cleaning the kitchen. Others have had weight gain issues with it, I've had a little bit so you do have to watch your diet.
The most important take away is that these things work differently on diferent people and the doctor just cannot switch up in and out of another because they take a few weeks to take effect.
Also, don't be ashamed that you need this. Many of us regulargly take some form or another, you don't even have to have cancer or experienced cancer in a spouse or child or death.
Depression is not a stigma, ok!!!
I also take Klonopin for anxiety in the morning and Ativan at night as needed. My family has a history of imsomnia, so even before I was diagnosed I was taking ambien. NO, I am not walking zombie and I am not a drug addict. I am calm

xoxo

Maria