[Pam P]

I saw the radiation doctor today and got all tattooed and measured. I will have 20 tx of radiation starting Jan. 20. I just hated radiation when I had it on my chest years ago. Dreading having to go 20 times again.

More news: my tumor marker up another 300 pts from 3 weeks ago, so something going on. My fecal occult test - 1 of the 3 was positive for blood ( better than 3of3 2 weeks ago). The nurse said the doc will discuss that with me when I see him in 2 weeks. I know I'm going to have to start a new chemo again, but the doc won't switch my treatment until I'm done with radiation. Good I guess; one thing at a time.

I have been losing more weight. I'd say I've lost 10-15 lbs since November. Lately I think it's some post surgery weight loss which I hope is normal and will come back. I am trying to eat, but can't seem to get enough calories. I won't take the ensure, boost stuff --that tastes like poison! After the 3rd nurse-type person commented on my weight today, calling me a 'skinny little thing' I went to a drive thru and got burger, fries, and malt to bring home. I haven't eaten that junk in months.

I also bought rice protein powder to mix in with food to add protein and some calories.

Maybe I'll just eat marshmallows like Flori!