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Lori R · 08-24-2010, 06:48 PM

Delaney,
As the other wise women before me have said....a coward??? Are you kidding??? The tests and awaiting scan results has to be THE most stressful situation anyone could ever face. The fact that you are not in a padded room says a lot about your strength of character.

Just so you know...you are not alone in terms of high anxiety. When I received my recent scan results, I had an intuition they were bad and started to cry in the Drs office the moment she opened the door. My husband and Dr. looked at me like I was crazy.

But....we do exactly what you are doing. We regroup. The most defeating thought process you can entertain is the various twists and turns our future may (or may not) take. For now...you have an option that is encouraging. That is enough for today. If that option should fail, there will be another one. (Abraxane, Ixempra, Gemzar...I am sure there are others I am not aware of)

Also.....to divert those deep dark clouds...FORCE yourself...I know it is not easy...to be appreciative. What do you appreciate about today? Is your Dr. kind? Do you have a family member that's been supportive. I think it is someone on this board that said you can't be fearful and appreciative at the same time. When the fear creeps in..repeat process.

Please keep us posted and do not hesitate to return with your fears. Leave them on this site and then go and enjoy your day.

Keep the faith....Lori

08-24-2010, 06:48 PM	#6
Lori R Senior Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Evergreen, Colorado Posts: 454	Re: Message from a coward Delaney, As the other wise women before me have said....a coward??? Are you kidding??? The tests and awaiting scan results has to be THE most stressful situation anyone could ever face. The fact that you are not in a padded room says a lot about your strength of character. Just so you know...you are not alone in terms of high anxiety. When I received my recent scan results, I had an intuition they were bad and started to cry in the Drs office the moment she opened the door. My husband and Dr. looked at me like I was crazy. But....we do exactly what you are doing. We regroup. The most defeating thought process you can entertain is the various twists and turns our future may (or may not) take. For now...you have an option that is encouraging. That is enough for today. If that option should fail, there will be another one. (Abraxane, Ixempra, Gemzar...I am sure there are others I am not aware of) Also.....to divert those deep dark clouds...FORCE yourself...I know it is not easy...to be appreciative. What do you appreciate about today? Is your Dr. kind? Do you have a family member that's been supportive. I think it is someone on this board that said you can't be fearful and appreciative at the same time. When the fear creeps in..repeat process. Please keep us posted and do not hesitate to return with your fears. Leave them on this site and then go and enjoy your day. Keep the faith....Lori __________________ 2007 Oct - Diagnosed - Stage IV 5 c.m. IDC - Left Side er/pr- Her2+++ Node + 2/14 - Single Liver Met Double Mastectomy Nov - Begin T+H 2008 Feb-Complete 6 cycles- T&H- NED March - Continue - Herceptin Only April - Rads for 6 weeks 2009 Continue Herceptin - Continue NED April - Recurrance- 3 cm. Liver Met May - Cryosurgery June - November - Abraxane + Herceptin Aug - PET/CT - CTC = 0 Back to NED 2010 January - Continue NED July - Recurrance - 3 cm Liver Met CTC=1 August - Cryosurgery #2 August - November Navelbine November - Back to NED - End Navelbine 2011 Feb - Recur - 4 cm Liver Met - Same Left Lobe March Surgery it is -Couldn't get a clean margin July - Confirmed continued liver involvement August - Begin Herceptin + Tykerb October - Mixed results from H+T Add Abraxane + H + T - Nov - April 2012 January PET Scan - It's working!! April - Back to NED July - Recurrance August - Begin TDM-1 Trial (Taxol + TDM-1)