[Adriana Mangus]

I don't know what to do.

Since I was told the cancer is now in the fourth rib, I have developed pain under and around the breast, and it radiates onto my back. Not all the time or all day long, but it's there. Also doc said a small amount of fluid was found in the lung. Can it turn into pneumonia? I'm scared.

The doc gave me his blessings and clearance to go on my vacation.

I don't know if I'm going to be ok the entire time, or if I will get easily tired walking, or going ashore on the excursions. On top of that I hear the weather is horrendous--humid and hot.

Now this....

1. One of the nurses hired to take care of Kent is sick with pneumonia and won't be able to work.

2. My daughter has had pain in her lower abdome, had chills and fever last nite.

3. If I do go on this vacation for 10 days, Kent will have to go to the Nurse's home for the entire lenght of my vacation--commuting issues were explained to me. I got it, but not Kent. He does not want to leave his house.

4. On top of that I just adopted a new maltese, he's only 5 months old, and not yet housebroken. He's destroying my home.

5. The guy who's supposed to take care of Harley, the 5 month old --is sick and won't be able to watch him.

I think I'm receiving messages from someone up there, (my angel, perhaps) for me to stay put, cancel and re-schedule the vacation to a later date.

What do you think? I don't know what to do. Forget about vacation protection insurance or stuff like that, I don't mind paying a a few bucks to have everything reschedule. What do I do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please respond.

Thank you,

Adriana