[Sherryg683]

We are like shell shocked veterans. We put so much into fighting the battle that when it's over, we look back and wonder how we made it through it. I was on such a high when I was told I was NED but it only took a few weeks for the realization of what I had been through and all my fears to hit me like a rock. It's normal. I did a lot of crying in the shower, I would get in my pool and go underwater and just scream. It felt better to let these emotions out and I think it's more healty. As far as your aches and pain. Our body has been in a battle and it's going to hurt. Chemo is tough stuff. I hurt in places that I didn't think could hurt for probably 2 years after I finished chemo. When something would quit hurting, something new would pop up. For the first 2 years after chemo, I had scans done every 3 months, nothing ever showed up. Now being an old veteran of this, I don't freak out over every ache and pain anymore. There's life after this war, you just gotta take it a day at a time and deal with it the way that is most natural to you...sherryg