[fullofbeans]

Thank you so much for your support. It is especially appreciated as I am fighting this almost alone, I have only told two friends and have not yet told my family (my mum is 69y/o). When I do start telling I want to have formulated a plan of action we can all focus on and thank you Bonnie for reminding me that under no circumstuamces should you loose hope. I do want a forever remission and I am looking hard at options to get me there.

But basically I am going onMonday to the hospital and I am not leaving til I have been radiated..I had 1 node for 2 weeks then 2 nodes last week and now I can feel 3 or 4..this is ridiculous. No I cannot wait any longer without loosing my sanity.


The wasted two weeks to see if it was an infection was I think terribly unprofessional, now that i think about it how could they do that when I did not show any other sign than a sore throat, no fever no elevated white cells..you find yourself wondering how these people think and they are suppose to be top oncologist?? if it had been their daughter they would they have thought better check that supraclav node darling since the statitic of people without cancer are at 68% neoplastic at biopsy..so what was ever my chance..

I should add to my quote trust yourself first but I have to transform my anger into something positive and make sure that from now on..