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v-ness · 01-16-2010, 11:54 PM

i am so glad to have this place to come to, to seek out the reassurances and guidance of those who've been through all this. i consider myself still a newbie to it all, though i have read voraciously. you must be a newbie when you're still in your first, and hopefully only, chemo. i let myself slip tonight with my fears, but you have all helped me and i'll probably re-read your words again before 4:10 monday's CT scan. the other good thing is the very same day my onco told me "i consider you disease-free". so that should be my mantra. my lara croft tomb raider, cancer killer in miniature, successfully racing through my veins destroying any errant cells. she worked well for me in the beginning. i've only now had those 'end of chemo' anxieties. the 'what now?' upcoming loss of a safety net. i expect it will revisit me at the end of radiation too. then again at the end of herceptin. but i will say that finding out that it is not uncommon to feel anxious at the end of chemo has already helped me feel better. i was falling into a melancholy over christmas and bob's anniversary. but one thing my honey would have said was," you get yourself up by your bootstraps girl and go on like a trooper". one of his greatest gifts to me, besides his love, was strength. as you can see in my sig file, i think his hand still reaches out to guide me along on this path.

valerie

01-16-2010, 11:54 PM	#6
v-ness Senior Member Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: western ma Posts: 280	Re: ct scan for sinuses? i am so glad to have this place to come to, to seek out the reassurances and guidance of those who've been through all this. i consider myself still a newbie to it all, though i have read voraciously. you must be a newbie when you're still in your first, and hopefully only, chemo. i let myself slip tonight with my fears, but you have all helped me and i'll probably re-read your words again before 4:10 monday's CT scan. the other good thing is the very same day my onco told me "i consider you disease-free". so that should be my mantra. my lara croft tomb raider, cancer killer in miniature, successfully racing through my veins destroying any errant cells. she worked well for me in the beginning. i've only now had those 'end of chemo' anxieties. the 'what now?' upcoming loss of a safety net. i expect it will revisit me at the end of radiation too. then again at the end of herceptin. but i will say that finding out that it is not uncommon to feel anxious at the end of chemo has already helped me feel better. i was falling into a melancholy over christmas and bob's anniversary. but one thing my honey would have said was," you get yourself up by your bootstraps girl and go on like a trooper". one of his greatest gifts to me, besides his love, was strength. as you can see in my sig file, i think his hand still reaches out to guide me along on this path. valerie __________________ 8/09 - IDC 1.8 cm triple positive, lumpectomy left breast 10/09 began chemo (taxotere & carboplatin) and weekly herceptin. 1/21/10 finished chemo, continued on herceptin every 3 weeks until 10/2010. 2/10 began 7 wks of radiation 6/10 mom dies of primary peritoneal ovarian cancer 8/10 got my last remaining ovary out 10/10 mammogram all clear 3/11 MRI shows 5 'spots' in right breast, largest 1 cm unidentifiable on US needle biopsy proved the largest to be old inflamed cyst -phew! 7/10 switched to Arimidex 8/9 switched to Femara - allergic to arimidex Femara made me lose hair quickly so switched to Aromasin Aromasin made my hair fall out too and the bone pain was too much. back on Tamoxifen 1/2013. blood clot from trains and planes 5/2014 so on coumadin per onco for as long as i am on tamoxifen tamoxifen was supposed to be up with my 5 yrs in may but my boyfriend was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer so i am staying on tamoxifen indefinitely because i want some ammo against BC, given the stress. lost my husband in only 10 wks in 2007 to stage 4 esophageal cancer. cancer's screwing with another man i love 2/2016 - 6yrs in remission, off tamoxifen and off coumadin - yay!