[Mary Jo]

Just want to "ditto" what Becky said and add a few of my own thoughts. As a 4 1/2 year NED survivor I can assure you I understand where you are and how you feel. Absolutely...totally and completely. I remember being freaked out and fearful almost daily for about 1 year. (yes, it was a veryyyyy long year) That being said, I can also assure you that it does get easier and you do find perspective in all you are going through. You come to realize that we are all "terminal" - in other words, we are all going to die....of something. The where, when and how not a single one of us knows. We might think we know, but ultimately, we don't know and have no control over our future or destiny. It's all in the Hands of God......what we go through and how we handle what we go through all help shape us into the people we were meant to become.

Hang in there. As Becky says "smile." There is something to say about smiling at others - it does something to you to see those smiles in return. Life seems less heavy.....you somehow see yourself as a person who can lighten the load of another person and all of sudden you find a new found purpose in your life and all that you (we) carry seems to get lighter as we give of ourselves.

I understand - I hear you......and I promise you it will get easier to bear.

Sending love and prayers for Peace,

Mary Jo