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Andrea Barnett Budin · 06-27-2009, 03:30 PM

Dear Eric,

I am broken hearted to read your post. You and Caryn have put up such an admirable fight all this time. Your love is radiant. We can all see it and feel it. It is palpable. And beautiful. You have been her rock and I know you will continue to be till the very end. You are quite a man. It is an honor to know you.

I remain full of prayers for Caryn and for you, and of course for your children. I wish I could find the words to express what is in my heart, but they are unspeakable.

I wish comfort for Caryn's pain, and am still open to a passing miracle. Just can't ever give up. It's in my DNA I think. If only I had a suggestion, but loving prayers are all I have to offer. So sorry. I would like to put my arms around you and hold you close, so you might know how deeply I want to be there for you. I am with you, for what that is worth. Many hearts are with you I know...

06-27-2009, 03:30 PM	#46
Andrea Barnett Budin Senior Member Join Date: Oct 2005 Location: LAND OF YES! w/home in Boca Raton, Florida Orig from L.I., N.Y. Ever hovering IN THE NOW... Posts: 1,904	Dear Eric, I am broken hearted to read your post. You and Caryn have put up such an admirable fight all this time. Your love is radiant. We can all see it and feel it. It is palpable. And beautiful. You have been her rock and I know you will continue to be till the very end. You are quite a man. It is an honor to know you. I remain full of prayers for Caryn and for you, and of course for your children. I wish I could find the words to express what is in my heart, but they are unspeakable. I wish comfort for Caryn's pain, and am still open to a passing miracle. Just can't ever give up. It's in my DNA I think. If only I had a suggestion, but loving prayers are all I have to offer. So sorry. I would like to put my arms around you and hold you close, so you might know how deeply I want to be there for you. I am with you, for what that is worth. Many hearts are with you I know... __________________ Andi BB '95 post-meno dx Invasive LOBULAR w/9cm tumor! YIKES + 2/21 nodes. Clear mammo 10 mnths earlier. Mastec/tram flap reconst/PORT/8 mnths chemo (4Adria/8CMF). Borderline ER/PR. Tamoxifen 2 yrs. Felt BLESSED. I could walk and talk, feed and bathe myself! I KNEW I would survive... '98 -- multiple mets to liver. HER2+ 80%. ER/PR- Raging, highly aggressive tumors spreading fast. New PORT. 9 mnths Taxotere Fought fire w/fire! Pronounced in cautious remission 5/99. Taxotere weekly for 6 wks, 2 wks off -- for 9 mnths. TALK ABOUT GRUELING! (I believe they've altered that protocol since those days -- sure hope so!!) + good old Vit H wkly for 1st 3 yrs, then triple dosage ev 3 wks for 7 yrs more... The "easy" chemo, right?! Not a walk in the park, but not a freight train coming at 'ya either... Added Herceptin Nov '98 (6 wks after FDA fast-tracked it for met bc). Stayed w/Vit H till July '08! Now I AM FREE! Humbly and eternally grateful for this life-saving drug! NED since '99 and planning on keeping it that way. To hell w/poor prognosis and nasty stats! STOPPED VIT H JULY '08...! REMAIN STABLE... Eternally grateful...Yes is a world & in this world of yes live (skillfully curled) all worlds ... (e e cummings) EVERY DAY I BEAT MY PREVIOUS RECORD FOR # OF CONSECUTIVE DAYS I'VE STAYED ALIVE. Smile KNOWING you too can be a miracle. Up to me and God now...