Hi Pam,
Somewhere in the world it's time for a drink, I'll join you in a glass as it's 8pm here in Ireland and celebrate your new lady of leisure status

I think now you've done it, deep inside you're taking the time
you know you need whether to rest relax or do what makes you happy. I did the same and never regretted it despite the drop in income. It sounds like you need, and deserve a break so don't feel guilty about allowing yourself one.
I'm very sorry to hear about your friend too, it's sad when we lose touch with someone and sadly find the reason is this damned disease has robbed them of years.
I'll be thinking of you..slainte!