[Believe51]

Today's Joy: Simply put, after my birthday party Ed took me to dinner, like I did not eat enough during the day (where are the chocolate Tums?). I took him home and got him settled. Oh yeah, I was going to do some damage. Shopping for sneakers, something I did not plan or desire to do. It came into the mind and that was it. I took my birthday money like a kid who feels the burning hole in the pocket feeling.

Why should I be normal either? I picked out 3 funky pairs of sneakers. A green and white pair of Reebok's, a yellow and white pair of Skechers' and my favorite....'Rocket Dogs' with tied-dyed laces and peace signs and a smiley face on the side. Midlife crisis you ask? Who cares, I ran with them. I am more spontaneous in life now and whenever I wear these sneakers I will smile because I remember. Those 'Rocket Dogs' are going to be my good luck pair I feel it.

So tomorrow when we go to Dana Farber I will adorn my good luck sneakies, crazy but awesome. Whenever I look down I will be reminded how I am able to see color in my life and how humor is for all ages.

I also got a phone call from a college sweetheart, we almost got married to one another. He has remained a constant force in my life, a true friend and total inspiration. His call made my day complete. He admires the love Ed and I share. Although we have never truly got over one another we are so happy we made the life choices we did. It takes a special team of lovers that can downgrade to friends and worship that friendship just as complete for 26 years. Hopefully Ed will feel better, he is dying to take us out on the town for dinner.>>Believe51