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Believe51 · 06-21-2009, 08:13 PM

Today's Joy: Listening to all of the phone calls to Ed today wishing him a "Happy Father's Day". Mind you, they were all speaking of his cat, Mookie!! Haha! My granddaughter is from my son, he is from another man not quite as wonderful as Ed but a real nice person.

I have a Henri Bendel candle burning and it has been burning all day. My house smells great, I have my husband by my side in his Lazy Boy chair, the cat on his lap....Life is good.

I sit here tonight and write that part of me is still numb and cannot believe this is happening to his brain. I look at the legal pad on my side and see two full pages of options. I skipped a line between them all and many are shots in the dark, many are risky but I fill with hope. I have hope, especially now and it flows as fierce as the swollen river across the street.

What a lovely day with Ed. Also I have had thoughts of Rose and how I will be working from home most of the time. I am so happy just being and focus on the future that we are going to once again grasp. Things are moving forward for us both, we just have to redirect the direction of our flow.>>Believe51

06-21-2009, 08:13 PM	#389
Believe51 Senior Member Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: RHODE ISLAND (Ed getting me a latte on 2nd Cancerversary Cruise 2008) 'BELIEVE': To accept as true or real, To have faith in, To presume ALWAYS BELIEVE Posts: 2,999	Today's Joy: Listening to all of the phone calls to Ed today wishing him a "Happy Father's Day". Mind you, they were all speaking of his cat, Mookie!! Haha! My granddaughter is from my son, he is from another man not quite as wonderful as Ed but a real nice person. I have a Henri Bendel candle burning and it has been burning all day. My house smells great, I have my husband by my side in his Lazy Boy chair, the cat on his lap....Life is good. I sit here tonight and write that part of me is still numb and cannot believe this is happening to his brain. I look at the legal pad on my side and see two full pages of options. I skipped a line between them all and many are shots in the dark, many are risky but I fill with hope. I have hope, especially now and it flows as fierce as the swollen river across the street. What a lovely day with Ed. Also I have had thoughts of Rose and how I will be working from home most of the time. I am so happy just being and focus on the future that we are going to once again grasp. Things are moving forward for us both, we just have to redirect the direction of our flow.>>Believe51 __________________ 9/7/06Husband 50yrs=StageIV IBC/HER2+,BoneMets10/06TaxotereX10,'H'1X wk,Zometa,Tamoxifen4/12/07Last Tax5/18/07Pet=Rapid Cell Activity,No Organ Mets,Lytic Lesions,Degeneration,Some Bone Repair5/07ChemoFail6/01/07Pleural Thoracentisis=Effusions,NoMalignantCells6/19/07+7/2/07DFCI 6/25/07BrainMRI=BrainMets,Many<9mm7/10/07WBR/PelvisRad37.5Gx15&Nutritionist8/19/07T/X9/20/07BrainMRI=2<2mm10/6/07Pet=BoneProgression 10/24/07ChemoFail11/9/07A/Cx10,EndTam12/7/07Faslodex12/10/07Muga7512/13/07BlasticLesions1/7/08BrainMRI=Clear4/1/08Pet=BoneImprovement, NoProgression,Stable4/7/08BrainPerfect5/16/08Last A/C8/26/08BrainMets=10(<9mm)9/10/08Gamma10/30/08Met=5mm12/19/08Gamma5mets5 12/22/08SpinalMets1/14/09SpinalRads2/17/09BrainMRI=NoNewMets4/20/09BoneScan5/14/09Ixempra6/1/09BrainMRI=NumerousMets6/24/09DFCIw/DrBurstein6/26/09Continue Ixempra/Faslodex/Zometa~TM now lower7/17/09Stop Ixempra By Choice9/21/09HOSPICE10/16/09Earned His Deserved Wings And Halo=37 Month Fight w/Stage 4 IBC, Her2+++,My Hero!!