[Believe51]

Today's Joy: My Mother-in-Laws house is finished getting moved out. I spent many nights going through her lifetime of memories. It was hard to get rid of things, pass things on....etc. I found many nice surprises though and I really think they were meant for me to stumble across in the process of closing up her life.

Best thing is the gentleman that I have placed her cat with has become a friend. I had an aweful last day at Mom's house as I watched the rest of her antiques and treasures get taken, not sold, by strangers. I cried as I witnessed this and looking around at an empty home. I could not get these thoughts out of my head. It was making me sick today......we had to give them away as part of the cost of removal. She had over $2,500 in curtains that I took home and mannnnny other things that I can share. Mom had both quality and quanity of everything! You cannot imagine the amount of stuff that was there.

But John called and his phone conversation was like Mom sent him to comfort me. John keeps us updated and we are going to get a visitation next week (yeah!!) He really put things into the perspective I needed to rid these thoughts. The cat is safe and loved, he is continuing to get spoiled and that is all Mom would care about. She would laugh at me if she could see how these physical treasures that we 'lost' were bothering me.....then she would tell me that all she cared about was her kitty. I am not a materialistic person, I just wanted to keep everything that was her.

I can now start to mourn. Doing this move was something I could only do but focusing on the task and not the memories. Bittersweet.