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Believe51 · 04-27-2009, 09:10 PM

Eric thanks. I only write what my heart feels on this site, never sugar coating or telling someone what I think they need to hear. I say it like it is, this is the real me, the true Marie. Lately I feel like this sounds like I am a crazy co-dependant, pyscho! I really cannot believe this is all happening to Ed and I and it is not a pity thing. I have to smile right through it because I think I'd crack. This is my real life and sometimes I do not want to ask for prayers or sound like I am complaining. This upbeat attitude is mine, I own it and I have to for my quality of life. Hmmmm, let's see, in the last 2 months alone my Mother-in-Law was in an almost fatal accident, coma, now rehab and giving me trouble to go home. My Father has had several episodes in the hospital for his heart, the last one being a grand mal seizure. Lost my job, life insurance and benefit package at a job I had for 7 years. And My Sweet husband, my best friend is starting chemotherapy on Wednesday.

I am handling the stress well despite I do not understand how besides acceptance and determination. I figure that God has to have alot of faith in me to handle this amount of pressure and not crack. Do not get me wrong, I am not no superwoman, I am just an average woman in love with being alive loving these people and life itself. Besides, the big guy needs to know that I will be alright if he is not here.

I did take a Xanax and this has helped me to just chill out tonight and go slow enough to not get so stressed until I shook. I refuse to let stress rent space in my head as much as possible. And you guys, well, I always feeled protected and loved and prayed for. I gather strength and life force here. I am rambling and did not realize I needed to vent that bad.

Thanks you all for the prayers and the strength. Not only do I feel that God has alot of faith in me to handle these things but you all do too. You give me strength, love and courage to be able to move past things and really enjoy my life.>>Believe51

Gee Eric, maybe I should have had a shot, I might have passed out by now......ROTFL!!

04-27-2009, 09:10 PM	#10
Believe51 Senior Member Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: RHODE ISLAND (Ed getting me a latte on 2nd Cancerversary Cruise 2008) 'BELIEVE': To accept as true or real, To have faith in, To presume ALWAYS BELIEVE Posts: 3,000	Eric thanks. I only write what my heart feels on this site, never sugar coating or telling someone what I think they need to hear. I say it like it is, this is the real me, the true Marie. Lately I feel like this sounds like I am a crazy co-dependant, pyscho! I really cannot believe this is all happening to Ed and I and it is not a pity thing. I have to smile right through it because I think I'd crack. This is my real life and sometimes I do not want to ask for prayers or sound like I am complaining. This upbeat attitude is mine, I own it and I have to for my quality of life. Hmmmm, let's see, in the last 2 months alone my Mother-in-Law was in an almost fatal accident, coma, now rehab and giving me trouble to go home. My Father has had several episodes in the hospital for his heart, the last one being a grand mal seizure. Lost my job, life insurance and benefit package at a job I had for 7 years. And My Sweet husband, my best friend is starting chemotherapy on Wednesday. I am handling the stress well despite I do not understand how besides acceptance and determination. I figure that God has to have alot of faith in me to handle this amount of pressure and not crack. Do not get me wrong, I am not no superwoman, I am just an average woman in love with being alive loving these people and life itself. Besides, the big guy needs to know that I will be alright if he is not here. I did take a Xanax and this has helped me to just chill out tonight and go slow enough to not get so stressed until I shook. I refuse to let stress rent space in my head as much as possible. And you guys, well, I always feeled protected and loved and prayed for. I gather strength and life force here. I am rambling and did not realize I needed to vent that bad. Thanks you all for the prayers and the strength. Not only do I feel that God has alot of faith in me to handle these things but you all do too. You give me strength, love and courage to be able to move past things and really enjoy my life.>>Believe51 Gee Eric, maybe I should have had a shot, I might have passed out by now......ROTFL!! __________________ 9/7/06Husband 50yrs=StageIV IBC/HER2+,BoneMets10/06TaxotereX10,'H'1X wk,Zometa,Tamoxifen4/12/07Last Tax5/18/07Pet=Rapid Cell Activity,No Organ Mets,Lytic Lesions,Degeneration,Some Bone Repair5/07ChemoFail6/01/07Pleural Thoracentisis=Effusions,NoMalignantCells6/19/07+7/2/07DFCI 6/25/07BrainMRI=BrainMets,Many<9mm7/10/07WBR/PelvisRad37.5Gx15&Nutritionist8/19/07T/X9/20/07BrainMRI=2<2mm10/6/07Pet=BoneProgression 10/24/07ChemoFail11/9/07A/Cx10,EndTam12/7/07Faslodex12/10/07Muga7512/13/07BlasticLesions1/7/08BrainMRI=Clear4/1/08Pet=BoneImprovement, NoProgression,Stable4/7/08BrainPerfect5/16/08Last A/C8/26/08BrainMets=10(<9mm)9/10/08Gamma10/30/08Met=5mm12/19/08Gamma5mets5 12/22/08SpinalMets1/14/09SpinalRads2/17/09BrainMRI=NoNewMets4/20/09BoneScan5/14/09Ixempra6/1/09BrainMRI=NumerousMets6/24/09DFCIw/DrBurstein6/26/09Continue Ixempra/Faslodex/Zometa~TM now lower7/17/09Stop Ixempra By Choice9/21/09HOSPICE10/16/09Earned His Deserved Wings And Halo=37 Month Fight w/Stage 4 IBC, Her2+++,My Hero!!