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Dear Norweigan,
Of course your feelings are mixed....first of all you need a good nighs sleep for you're well being. You sound exhuasted from lack of a good nights sleep.
The good news is that you are two years out and are NED...it takes time to get your mindset and body back on track - hearing you have bc and then surgery, treatment, my gosh of course you feel mixed up.
We do have to learn to live in an place after dx. But consider this, does anyone know what to expect the next day? Life is always throwing something in our path, be it great things or sad ones. It is how we learn
to deal with them. (It is not easy or even fair).
We all hate cancer, if it were in a human physcial form I would put my hands around it's neck and put all my strength into crushing it's throat and taking the life out of it. (along with all my Her2 sisters).
Be patient with yourself. It takes time to heal and we all heal at different times and levels. I wonder if you have any type of support group at your cancer center. You may find it helpful to belong.
If it helps any, many dr. here in the US do not believe in scans...they tell their patients unless there are symptoms they do not order them. Of course staging is important when dr. orders scans.
Please know we are also here for you.
Sending you hugs,
Jean
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Stage 1, Grade 1, 3/30/05
Lumpectomy 4/15/05 - 6MM IDC
Node Neg. (Sentinel node)
ER+ 90% / PR-, Her2+++ by FISH
Ki-67 40%
Arimidex 5/05
Radiation 32 trt, 5/30/05
Oncotype DX test 4/17/06, 31% high risk
TOPO 11 neg. 4/06
Stopped Arimidex 5/06
TCH 5/06, 6 treatments
Herceptin 5/06 - for 1 yr.
9/06 Completed chemo
Started Femara Sept. 2006
Last edited by Jean; 01-22-2009 at 03:55 PM..
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