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Andrea Barnett Budin · 10-17-2008, 02:40 PM

I hear you Maryanne. Life is full of challenges to be sure. And some days, we get blind-sided and take things personally (egoically) and fall into our humanness. We lose our Spiritual nature.

We are always justified/entitled to our feelings. They are directly connected to that voice in our head, though. And when we can breathe, and remember that that voice is not who we truly are, we automatically then connect with our Truest Selves. That of course is a wondrous reality! We are each a radiant Spirit full of unconditional, infinite Love. Tapping into that truth changes everything.

You always have my shoulder, HarrieCanarieBird! And I truly hope you are having a better day.

Recently I had an incident that left me feeling kicked to the side of the road, disregarded and unappreciated after decades of my loving kindness and friendship. I was wounded. My ego was badly bruised. I too rode it out. When I was able to catch my breath, and to vent PLENTY (sooo relieving!) -- I was able to get back to my joy spot, at my core.

That's what I wish for you.

And yes, Elaine! Life is a huge classroom for sure. You express it all so well. We are indeed a work in progress. We must continue to evolve and grow, to learn and become more, with each new day. That is what we are each meant to do. And to be there for one another. And yes, the biggest mistake is not to learn from your mistakes. You can't undo what you may have said/done, but you can be sure you won't repeat it. That's worth a whole lot. Collecting Life Lessons and sharing them too.

Thank you Susan for your kind words. You lift me up! Much appreciated, I assure you! Being out here in uncharted waters is seriously scary. But I have faith! I stay in touch with my body, and with my Spirit, I meditate, I pray, I converse with the Universe all day long and I live more in joy and harmony than in fear. And I keep putting one foot in front of the other! Onward and upward, as a dear friend of mine has often said. I love that mantra! And her...

10-17-2008, 02:40 PM	#40
Andrea Barnett Budin Senior Member Join Date: Oct 2005 Location: LAND OF YES! w/home in Boca Raton, Florida Orig from L.I., N.Y. Ever hovering IN THE NOW... Posts: 1,904	Sending Y'all Loving Energy I hear you Maryanne. Life is full of challenges to be sure. And some days, we get blind-sided and take things personally (egoically) and fall into our humanness. We lose our Spiritual nature. We are always justified/entitled to our feelings. They are directly connected to that voice in our head, though. And when we can breathe, and remember that that voice is not who we truly are, we automatically then connect with our Truest Selves. That of course is a wondrous reality! We are each a radiant Spirit full of unconditional, infinite Love. Tapping into that truth changes everything. You always have my shoulder, HarrieCanarieBird! And I truly hope you are having a better day. Recently I had an incident that left me feeling kicked to the side of the road, disregarded and unappreciated after decades of my loving kindness and friendship. I was wounded. My ego was badly bruised. I too rode it out. When I was able to catch my breath, and to vent PLENTY (sooo relieving!) -- I was able to get back to my joy spot, at my core. That's what I wish for you. And yes, Elaine! Life is a huge classroom for sure. You express it all so well. We are indeed a work in progress. We must continue to evolve and grow, to learn and become more, with each new day. That is what we are each meant to do. And to be there for one another. And yes, the biggest mistake is not to learn from your mistakes. You can't undo what you may have said/done, but you can be sure you won't repeat it. That's worth a whole lot. Collecting Life Lessons and sharing them too. Thank you Susan for your kind words. You lift me up! Much appreciated, I assure you! Being out here in uncharted waters is seriously scary. But I have faith! I stay in touch with my body, and with my Spirit, I meditate, I pray, I converse with the Universe all day long and I live more in joy and harmony than in fear. And I keep putting one foot in front of the other! Onward and upward, as a dear friend of mine has often said. I love that mantra! And her... __________________ Andi BB '95 post-meno dx Invasive LOBULAR w/9cm tumor! YIKES + 2/21 nodes. Clear mammo 10 mnths earlier. Mastec/tram flap reconst/PORT/8 mnths chemo (4Adria/8CMF). Borderline ER/PR. Tamoxifen 2 yrs. Felt BLESSED. I could walk and talk, feed and bathe myself! I KNEW I would survive... '98 -- multiple mets to liver. HER2+ 80%. ER/PR- Raging, highly aggressive tumors spreading fast. New PORT. 9 mnths Taxotere Fought fire w/fire! Pronounced in cautious remission 5/99. Taxotere weekly for 6 wks, 2 wks off -- for 9 mnths. TALK ABOUT GRUELING! (I believe they've altered that protocol since those days -- sure hope so!!) + good old Vit H wkly for 1st 3 yrs, then triple dosage ev 3 wks for 7 yrs more... The "easy" chemo, right?! Not a walk in the park, but not a freight train coming at 'ya either... Added Herceptin Nov '98 (6 wks after FDA fast-tracked it for met bc). Stayed w/Vit H till July '08! Now I AM FREE! Humbly and eternally grateful for this life-saving drug! NED since '99 and planning on keeping it that way. To hell w/poor prognosis and nasty stats! STOPPED VIT H JULY '08...! REMAIN STABLE... Eternally grateful...Yes is a world & in this world of yes live (skillfully curled) all worlds ... (e e cummings) EVERY DAY I BEAT MY PREVIOUS RECORD FOR # OF CONSECUTIVE DAYS I'VE STAYED ALIVE. Smile KNOWING you too can be a miracle. Up to me and God now...