[Gerri]

Hi Jessica,

I'm sorry to hear that you are going to have to go through more treatment. I hope that you find someplace where you feel more comfortable.

When I had my radiation mapping done, I too was surprised when the techs brought out the bright blue Sharpie and starting drawing huge squares and rectangles all over my breast (didn't have the stickers). It was explained to me that they needed to map out the various fields with the markers and the measurements were very precise. As I left the appointment, she handed me my own Sharpie and told me to make sure I traced over the lines every day until my next appointment to keep them from fading. The next time I went in for the final measurements (the day before my first radiation treatment), the tech drew on me with blue and red Sharpies. It just so happened that I was attending a semi-formal dinner that evening and was pretty sure that my dress would not cover everything. I told the techs about my concerns and they very kindly wiped most of the markings off with alcohol after they were through. Fortunately, the actual tattoos were (are) tiny dots that are hardly even noticeable now.

Hang in there, I know that is sometimes easier said than done. I hope the rads do the trick for you.