[BonnieR]

Laurie, I was on TaxOL, carbo and Herceptin. My big fear was a Herceptin reaction. I got hung up on it. But the cancer center psychologist would say that when I received my first infusion it would seem like a balloon being stuck with a pin and all the air being let out. All the anxiety being released. It was a good image for me. And that is just how it turned out. Also, I was reasssured by the treatment room nurses that they first administer drugs to prevent any adverse reactions, they stat the chemo slowly, monitor you carefully and can halt right away. Plus there are drugs to counteract any adverse reactions. AND you should receive some anti-anxiety med to get you through that first time. Maybe you could visit the treatment area ahead of time and talk to staff to tell them your concerns and get some reassurance. .
Most of us have been where you are right now. The anticipation is the worst. But we have come out the other side and you will too...
Keep the faith.