[Bill]

Sue, we are all here for you. You have mentioned a language barrier. If you don't mind my asking, what language does your Mom speak? If you feel overwhelmed with everything going on in your life right now, maybe you could contact a support group, or talk to a counselor or doctor. We all need help now and then. Also, right now it is so important for you to eat as healthy as you can and get your rest. You will feel better, and like you said, if your Mom sees you smile, she smiles. Eat Healthy, exercise, rest, and relax and try to clear your mind of all your stress at least once a day, either through prayer or meditation. You are going through alot right now, and if you don't take care of yourself, you are no good to anyone else. As for being scared, I'll let you in on a little secret, we are all scared of losing those that we love, and we are often scared of not being strong enough to take care of our loved ones. And, at times, we all wish that we could run away. That's normal, and natural. Once I heard "courage" defined as "being scared to death, but forcing yourself to be brave, and acting as if you had no fear", or something like that. It's apparent to me that you are one courageous young Lady. You and your family will be in our prayers, Bill