[Gerri]

Dear Sue,

My heart is breaking for you and what you are going through. I am so sorry that you feel so alone. I think one of the first things you need to do tomorrow is get in contact with a counselor at your school. If that is not possible contact the American Cancer Society or a local hospital and see if they have any suggestions for where you can get some help. You need a support system, and you need it now. Talking this out with others will help you tremendously.

I know it is so hard for you to be away from your mom right now, but all you can do is call her often and tell her how much you love her. Believe me, it will mean the world to her. Speaking as a mom, it is harder for me to see my children suffer than it is to go through any pain and suffering myself. Try to be as upbeat as you can and give her encouragement. This has been a long road for all of you and I know you are emotionally exhausted. As Barbara said, even though things sound grim, she may live a very long time with mets. What will help her the most is knowing that you are doing okay.

I'm glad that you reached out to us. Please know that you are not alone. Get that help you need. Remember, for some reason things always seem worse at night. I hope and pray that tomorrow brings you some relief.

Take good care sweetie and keep in touch.

Much love,