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Andrea Barnett Budin · 07-06-2008, 10:29 AM

Hello my little Hawaiian Canarie,

I have been working (first at my electric typewriter) and finally in Microsoft Word, seeing the silliness of not being able to delete, cut and paste, control find and such for (my daughters tell me) about five years.

Hence I have thousands of pages and files all over the place, not to mention stacks of notes -- made at night, in the car while Paul is driving, in the middle of a movie we are at -- to be incorporated. I believe there are about 3 books there. Maybe more.

I am now at the point of contacting an editor to help me sort things out. All are spiritually based. Which has evolved out of my bc experience and blessed my life. I can see that the Enlightenments I have been blessed to come to awaken to can help anyone facing almost any adversity.

So though I am working daily, I seem to be going in circles. The chapters keep on improving and I revisit them and revise ONCE AGAIN. That is the good news.

I believe an editor can also guide me in finding a literary agent, though I have picked one out in particular that I think will be especially receptive to my work. (It is where my Spirit is guiding me to go.) I just want what I submit (100 pages required, double spaced) to be exactly what I feel it should be. Despite the very real possibility of my efforts being torn to shreds. Perish the thought.

It is a process. A truly slow process. A joy, a passion, and the hardest thing I have ever done. Worse than giving birth; it clearly is a kind of giving life to something beloved.

Wish I could say by the Fall, Maryanne, but let me just say -- as soon as I possibly can get it to be accepted and put into print.

Thanks for your caring, Harrie. You are doing a great job evolving. You are open and listening. Letting your Soul take over (which is full of divine energy) overruling the voice in your head. Good job.

Love and Happy, Positive Energy to you,

Andi

07-06-2008, 10:29 AM	#24
Andrea Barnett Budin Senior Member Join Date: Oct 2005 Location: LAND OF YES! w/home in Boca Raton, Florida Orig from L.I., N.Y. Ever hovering IN THE NOW... Posts: 1,904	Harriecanarie... Hello my little Hawaiian Canarie, I have been working (first at my electric typewriter) and finally in Microsoft Word, seeing the silliness of not being able to delete, cut and paste, control find and such for (my daughters tell me) about five years. Hence I have thousands of pages and files all over the place, not to mention stacks of notes -- made at night, in the car while Paul is driving, in the middle of a movie we are at -- to be incorporated. I believe there are about 3 books there. Maybe more. I am now at the point of contacting an editor to help me sort things out. All are spiritually based. Which has evolved out of my bc experience and blessed my life. I can see that the Enlightenments I have been blessed to come to awaken to can help anyone facing almost any adversity. So though I am working daily, I seem to be going in circles. The chapters keep on improving and I revisit them and revise ONCE AGAIN. That is the good news. I believe an editor can also guide me in finding a literary agent, though I have picked one out in particular that I think will be especially receptive to my work. (It is where my Spirit is guiding me to go.) I just want what I submit (100 pages required, double spaced) to be exactly what I feel it should be. Despite the very real possibility of my efforts being torn to shreds. Perish the thought. It is a process. A truly slow process. A joy, a passion, and the hardest thing I have ever done. Worse than giving birth; it clearly is a kind of giving life to something beloved. Wish I could say by the Fall, Maryanne, but let me just say -- as soon as I possibly can get it to be accepted and put into print. Thanks for your caring, Harrie. You are doing a great job evolving. You are open and listening. Letting your Soul take over (which is full of divine energy) overruling the voice in your head. Good job. Love and Happy, Positive Energy to you, Andi __________________ Andi BB '95 post-meno dx Invasive LOBULAR w/9cm tumor! YIKES + 2/21 nodes. Clear mammo 10 mnths earlier. Mastec/tram flap reconst/PORT/8 mnths chemo (4Adria/8CMF). Borderline ER/PR. Tamoxifen 2 yrs. Felt BLESSED. I could walk and talk, feed and bathe myself! I KNEW I would survive... '98 -- multiple mets to liver. HER2+ 80%. ER/PR- Raging, highly aggressive tumors spreading fast. New PORT. 9 mnths Taxotere Fought fire w/fire! Pronounced in cautious remission 5/99. Taxotere weekly for 6 wks, 2 wks off -- for 9 mnths. TALK ABOUT GRUELING! (I believe they've altered that protocol since those days -- sure hope so!!) + good old Vit H wkly for 1st 3 yrs, then triple dosage ev 3 wks for 7 yrs more... The "easy" chemo, right?! Not a walk in the park, but not a freight train coming at 'ya either... Added Herceptin Nov '98 (6 wks after FDA fast-tracked it for met bc). Stayed w/Vit H till July '08! Now I AM FREE! Humbly and eternally grateful for this life-saving drug! NED since '99 and planning on keeping it that way. To hell w/poor prognosis and nasty stats! STOPPED VIT H JULY '08...! REMAIN STABLE... Eternally grateful...Yes is a world & in this world of yes live (skillfully curled) all worlds ... (e e cummings) EVERY DAY I BEAT MY PREVIOUS RECORD FOR # OF CONSECUTIVE DAYS I'VE STAYED ALIVE. Smile KNOWING you too can be a miracle. Up to me and God now...