[Jean]

Dear Hopeful200,
It is obivious that you are a loving and devoted daughter. Like you I had a very strong loving bond with my Mother and there was nothing I would not do for her. I would move heaven and earth for her to still be with me, but lung cancer came and took her from me.
(not from bc) my mother was a huge smoker in her day.
The point I wish to share with you is that you are a dr.
and your jounrey in life is helping others and saving lives.
Be kind to yourself and remember even you, the loving devoted daughter/who is also a doctor did everything she could do. You do not know if your mother would have been accepted into the trial? Please do not
feel that you could have done more....there is a point where the loving daugher and dr. must accept we are but human. Rest easy in knowing that your mother knew she was well loved and cared for by you. We are NEVER ready to let go of our wonderful Moms. Allow yourself the time it takes to adjust the loss.

Regards,
Jean