[harrie]

Hopeful,
It is all to easy to feel blame and guilt. I think that is commonly all part of the grieving process. I also lost my mother to cancer and feelings of guilt and regret are part of my ego's way of dealing with the loss. In all reality though, please remember that I am sure you gave much to her in so many ways and it was all based on your love to her. That is more important then anything, I feel. What was meant to be, happened. It is time for letting go and acceptance that all was done as it was suppose to have been done. With this disease, there is most definitely no one perfect way of doing things. There are many choices and many directions.
At this point please try to be grateful that you and her were able to share so many physical yrs together as mother and daughter and had the time to develop your love together.
That is what life is all about and what gives death meaning.
Love and peace to you.
Maryanne