[LAURIE]

I am actually thinking that I have post traumatic symptoms from all of this. I cannot go 15 minutes about fearing about reoccurance. (this is even happening during my extermely busy workday)The nasty lymphedema I have is also just a constant reminder. I started taking xanaz to hep me calm down. I am seriously thinking about talking to a psychiatrist about it. Though I don't want to take drugs they are the things that are helping my thoughts get manageable. I would of thought being 6 months out treatment I would not of been so scared. I am going to be this scared until I am 2-? years out? I also feel nauseous and very dizzy when I am in a building with a very a high ceiling, or overly crowded room, with lots of people. Before I could handle anything. what has happened to my psyche? STRESS I guess (post traumatic and current)