[Ruth]

Kathy,

Please don't apologize for being grouchy. We all have been affected by our nerves and still can be that way! I remember being very sensitive to my Dr's expressions. If he looked at the floor I'd read something into it, if he'd pause before he said anything, I'd read something into it. I was sometimes my own worst enemy because fear was ever constant those first two years. I'd try to sneak peaks in my file as he was writing to see if he wrote something that he didn't tell me. I'd thought I was finally over it until last time I went for my 6 month check-up. I guess I was way too nervous/upset that day and my blood pressure went WAY up. I have never had high blood pressure. He wasn't concerned, gave me a big hug and told me he thought it was white coat syndrome. He said I looked great and to see him in 6 months. What did I do? Go straight to CVS and take my blood pressure 15 times...LOL